Ambushed

I did not expect today to be like this. First, the scary rain and the winds. Second, the blackout. Third and most importantly, the special time spent with Borbs' family.

I hate being unprepared for anything, but being ambushed by Borbs to be part of their family bonding ended up to be a pleasant surprise. Actually, I have wanted to spend time with his family for so long now, I just never thought I had the proper sense of self to face them already. You know, the thing about first impressions that come to last. Surely I did not want to be remembered as the girl their son/brother was seeing who needed Stresstabs and a heavy amount of sleep.

But like what I said, it was really a pleasant surprise. It was great spending time with his mom and his siblings. Talking to his sister who's also an Iska was super fun, as well. Borbs' family is so nice, warm and accommodating that I felt super welcome. Also, I actually learned a thing or two from them. Comes to show that sometimes, you don't always have to put your guards up. Who knows, things will turn out waaay better than you expected them to be--be it planned or not :)

Simple things like those make you think.

Hay :(

What Matters Most

It's a fact that I am a crybaby, and today, I actually cried twice. The reasons of which I would not rather share, but my point in telling these is to say how much I am blessed to have my family. Thank you to my parents and my brothers for keeping me on my toes, for urging me to be strong, for reminding me that things will be alright, and for simply being there no matter what. The last time we were complete as a family was last Christmas, so having everyone together on my birthday was the best gift that I could ever have.

Aside from a great family, I also have awesome friends. Thank you for all the fattening food that you gave me today. Seriously, our ref is struggling to contain all the cakes, pastries and sweets. And the effort in making a surprise, the warm messages, the hugs, and the love? Priceless. I am really touched and I feel so loved. Thank you :)

Happy vibes on the first day of my 22nd year :)

22nd

It's 12:30 AM, which means that it's my birthday already! I can't believe it's been 22 years! I feel so old yet so young, especially since med students are like extended adolescents, but are expected to act maturely at the same time. Haha. Anyway, the school stress has made my birthday less of an anticipative event for me. I guess this is what growing up does to you--you see less of what's in it for you and value your principles, goals, and priorities above your personal desires.

That's why for my birthday, all I really want are hugs. And better study habits. And warm greetings. And time spent with loved ones. That's all. Having milk tea today would definitely just be a plus. Haha.

Today is an extraordinary ordinary day for me. As what I've said recently to someone, birthdays are not just dates that seem like deadlines to planning surprises and giving gifts. You have to look beyond that, beyond the expenses and resources, the time and effort. Birthdays are celebrated because of love and happiness. So it doesn't matter what happens on your birthday or what you do for someone's birthday, really. What's important is that love and happiness are there. It's as simple as that.

I can say that I feel loved and happy, so this is surely one great birthday for me :)

Lost

If I chose a different path, would I be happier? Seriously, I'm having doubts that my passion and my dream are not enough to get me through this.

I know this is all worth it in the end, but enduring all these trials is seeping the life out of me.

I'm generally a happy person, but recent events have made me lost and down, and I don't know where to get that strong push to keep me standing once again.

I wish my parents were one snap of a finger away from me. I know their warm hugs and comforting presence would do such a difference. Sadly though, this is what growing up is all about; you'll realize that despite the many people around you, you have to rely on no one but your self in fixing your mess and patching up your life together again. I tend to depend a lot on others because I find happiness in knowing that other people choose to depend on me, too. Now, however, is probably the time to learn how to keep distance and strive on my own.