Realizations

The past week taught me the following:

1. It's hard for me to handle having my loved ones in danger. My brother going into dengue shock syndrome in front me sapped all my abilities to maintain grace under pressure. Panic kung panic. Haha.
2. Hospital rooms are like hotel rooms.
3. My priorities are messed up.
4. I am too much of a worrier.
5. My level of self-monitoring is still so high that it affects everything that I do.
6. Sometimes, it sucks to be a Type 2.
7. I should learn how to say no unapologetically.
8. I've been selfish and self-centered.
9. I should learn to enjoy what I'm doing.
10. I need to make an effort to be better and not just wait on the world to adapt for me.
11. We're all different people. Don't expect someone to think and live the same way you do.
12. I should know what it is that I really want.
13. The doubts are back. Is this really for me?
14. I should stop going online too often and study my butt off. NOW.