Maybe I just care too darn much.

Yearning for

1. A healthy and non-sick you
2. Time to be with you
3. Time to talk to you
4. An oven
5. Blue green nails
6. A movie marathon
   
7. Cows vs. Aliens
8. Time with my Dad
9. A good, group messaging-abled cell phone
10. Endless supply of Cobra with Gingko Biloba
11. A slimmer, fits-in-my-old-jeans me
12. Hugs
13. A cajon
14. Happy, bright-colored flowers
15. Isaw and fish balls
16. A fun trip to wherever, near or far
17. Wavy hair
18. More learning and understanding
19. Sleep
20. A vintage camera
21. That pretty pair of flats at Payless
22. Motivation and discipline
23. A fresh, positive perspective

Aaaah, stress. Be gone.

Realizations

The past week taught me the following:

1. It's hard for me to handle having my loved ones in danger. My brother going into dengue shock syndrome in front me sapped all my abilities to maintain grace under pressure. Panic kung panic. Haha.
2. Hospital rooms are like hotel rooms.
3. My priorities are messed up.
4. I am too much of a worrier.
5. My level of self-monitoring is still so high that it affects everything that I do.
6. Sometimes, it sucks to be a Type 2.
7. I should learn how to say no unapologetically.
8. I've been selfish and self-centered.
9. I should learn to enjoy what I'm doing.
10. I need to make an effort to be better and not just wait on the world to adapt for me.
11. We're all different people. Don't expect someone to think and live the same way you do.
12. I should know what it is that I really want.
13. The doubts are back. Is this really for me?
14. I should stop going online too often and study my butt off. NOW.

I took this blog for granted. But in times like this, when the world seems to be so crazy but at the same normal, I always get this urge to just write, write, write. I always return to you, dear blog.

I need something new. I need something fresh. I need some sort of new beginning.