Sunday, October 31, 2010

FREEDOM

The past weeks had been excruciatingly tiresome and eventful, I can't even believe that I've survived it. The best part of it all? I can officially say that I am done with my first semester in med school. WHAT UP. WHAAAAT IS UP.

Okay, so maybe I might take a removal exam for the Cardio-Pulmo module. Or maybe not even half of what I learned in the past months would be retained in my head. But I am just so tired of studying that all I can think about is the awesome feeling of having nothing to do at all. And here I am, basking in that feeling. Ah, sweet, sweet freedom!

Things I learned/realized/experienced:
  • I cannot donate blood because I am underweight. I even tried twice, in two different occasions. But then again, I feel fat. Well, I got really fatter. Ask my friends. I just don't know why my weight more or less stays the same and yet I have definitely grown unwillingly horizontal.
  • Tummy size is directly proportional to stress.
  • I lost my stethoscope. Perfect opportunity to buy a Littmann steth? Haha.
  • Sleep = death, most especially during the night before the exam. I should never ever trust my forever-alarm clock-snoozing self again.
  • Shopping for a party dress three hours before the party is a bad idea.
  • I really need to study study. I am not learning :(
  • I missed dressing up. Being in uniform five times a week should be enough motivation for me to dress up during weekends and not just settle for my quick, hassle-free, regular apparel (AKA loose shirt and shorts).
  • Inspect, palpate, percuss, auscultate.
  • Staring blankly into space = new hobby.
  • Goodbye, Pulmonology. There's no way I'm having you as my specialization.
  • The strongest people can be the weakest ones because of love :(
  • I worry too much.
  • My Photoshop skills are rusty already :-s
  • Wild Card was great! Congrats to everyone, especially to Borbs and Aileen! :)
  • I really missed you :)
Yaaaay, free time at last!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Why am I crying over this?


GAAAAAH.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

So Many Questions

1. Why am I a mediocre in everything? I don't know what I'm good at anymore. It seems that all that I do end up in so-sos. It makes me sad.

2. Why are so many hearts breaking? I can't take it that a lot of people dear to me are experiencing what I experienced before. Love shouldn't hurt like that :(

3. Why am I thinking about you when I shouldn't anymore?

4. Why am I unmotivated? Oh I know that answer to this question: SEMBREAK. Three. More. Weeks.

5. I've been here before, but really, how do you actually know know?