You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won't tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you've done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you're tired. You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and you're trying not to tell him that you love him, and you're trying to choke down the feeling, and you're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you don't even have a name for.

-from "You Are Jeff," by Richard Siken

Thankful

Everything's just so simple and safe and happy with you around :)

I am a stressed, fat, mediocre, and ugly med student who won't (or shouldn't) be sleeping tonight :(

It's 3:56 AM and I'm still all smiles.

Things that made me smile this weekend:

• Visiting UP
• Bonding with college pals
• Catching Up Dharma Down in Katipunan
• Having our picture taken with Armi
• Mushroom Burger
• No-whip green tea frap with hazelnut
• Zombie and Martini
• Yearbook meeting accomplished
• Getting semi-lost in Bambang
• A lovely set of scrubs
• Shared Wendy's Baconator
• Medical supplies shopping
• Marty's Baconette strips
• Red Horse
• Chill time
• A sweet revelation :)

Lethargy

My dose of energy + my dear B- and T-lymphocytes

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Greetings from Starbucks Megamall. I just had to take a break from histology, hematology ang immunology, hence the random camera phone photo and post.

How I wish I could simply laze around and stare into outerspace.

P.S. The baristas here let me try drawing on the Starbucks blackboard. I (awfully) sketched a Coffee Jelly frap. That's one down out of my gazillion dreams in life :)

I am going to be a good doctor someday.

I am going to be a good doctor someday.

I am going to be a good doctor someday.